Its so damn difficult to say Good Bye

  

Good Bye. That’s what we say when we see someone off. This phrase comes from “God be with you’. It has been shortened over the years since 16th century. The substitution for good for God seems to have been mainly due to the influence of such phrases as “Good Day" and “Good Night."

While saying Good Bye to someone comes naturally to most of us and I must have used it thousands of times in my life, yet it was particularly difficult to say when I said those two words today. Of course I wish that God be with her in every step of her life – watching over her and protecting her from all the troubles that she might encounter in her life. But today, for those few seconds, it felt as if good bye was the most difficult thing to say in my life. It almost felt like an eternity.

Why was it so difficult to say in the first place? Someone had once said, “You know you are in love when the hardest thing to say is good bye”. The guy was darn right. This feeling is very difficult to describe. For or a moment it feels as if you are underwater and the only place that you are going is down. You can’t breathe and you can’t see a thing. You feel as if you are going to die right then and there. It’s nauseating.

I wish I could meet her. I wish I could tell her not to leave. I wish I could look straight into her deep and beautiful eyes and tell her that she is the only thing that matters to me. I guess no such thing was supposed to happen and she left. Just like that. I wonder what’s more difficult. Coming to terms with the reality or challenging it? I know you don’t know what to say. Well just don’t say anything. Just listen to my silence and answer back in silence. Perhaps if we can ever do that then that would be the best conversation that we have had so far. Don’t say it. Just feel it.