At this very moment, all I can say is I am tired.And it's not just physical fatigue,it's mental fatigue as well.
I feel I am tired of the way things are going on in my life - a life which I choose to live but so many external factors and circumstances are entwined in each and every decision that I have to take. I am tired of trying to prove myself to this world and to myself that I can be something.I am tired of not being loved, of not being able to love the one whom I so desperately want to and not being able to get the same affection in return.
I am tired of comparisons, that people draw between me and others. I am tired of living up to the expectations of my parents, my family, my friends, my office and the whole world.I am tired of deadlines and plans, tired of reports and reviews and evaluations and calculations.I am tired of all the meetings and discussions that I get involved in every day when I don't have slightest clue as to where they are gonna take me to.
Frankly, I am all too tired of life and too tired of being a failure.This fatigue within is killing me.I pray God that He either gives me enough strength to live through this phase with with hope and determination, else give me enough courage to finish all this melodrama and end this bloody life.
For I am too tired of not being able to be myself.
I feel I am tired of the way things are going on in my life - a life which I choose to live but so many external factors and circumstances are entwined in each and every decision that I have to take. I am tired of trying to prove myself to this world and to myself that I can be something.I am tired of not being loved, of not being able to love the one whom I so desperately want to and not being able to get the same affection in return.
I am tired of comparisons, that people draw between me and others. I am tired of living up to the expectations of my parents, my family, my friends, my office and the whole world.I am tired of deadlines and plans, tired of reports and reviews and evaluations and calculations.I am tired of all the meetings and discussions that I get involved in every day when I don't have slightest clue as to where they are gonna take me to.
Frankly, I am all too tired of life and too tired of being a failure.This fatigue within is killing me.I pray God that He either gives me enough strength to live through this phase with with hope and determination, else give me enough courage to finish all this melodrama and end this bloody life.
For I am too tired of not being able to be myself.
1 comment:
When Going Gets tough, Tough gets going....Another thing, Life might not be that fair to your plans and wishes...Still it is unfair on our part to say that we are tired of life....It's beautiful...extremely beautiful...just live every moment and day as they come
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